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“25 years blinking hazard”

Granted a seat in my silver chair, I officially spent my 25 years in the body which I proclaim is a wonderland. (Oh come on people, that’s supposed to be captivating and hilarious!) On a serious note though, I decided to face responsibilities, apologize to people I’ve b*tch-slapped, re-gain friendships and marry a fairly good looking and rich guy. (…the latter is not entirely true.)

No money involved, no party, no work either -- t’was a plain and simple birthday holiday! I had time with the family and a new condo at Serendra. Just kidding, I don’t wanna brag (that much).

The seemingly adorable “sasagurl” pretty much accomplished growing-up. I’m now the serious person that I ought to be. (Snorts!) Very much sane and sober, I’ve been “stripped” of the few hazardous vices I used to have; fortunately my seemingly cautious self had been eliminated from dating the deceitfully amazing studs of the planet we call earth. It’s a great gift to be loved for who I really am along with moi “adjusted” close-to-normal self.

It may sound boring to be living a clean and stable life, as I’ve always thought so but I’d rather have it that way than anything more complicated.  I do however accept the challenge to encounter difficult people. (Although I have my mom and dad for that role already. LOL!) Anyhoo…anyone is free to approach my office to once again wear the shoes contributing to a complicated and trying relationship. (Except for the guy I talked with on the phone last night, we’re better off as friends, I verify that.)

Thank you for the miracles in my life; the people I loved, friends, and of course the real family “Ledesma” and my extended family, not to mention the future surname yours truly will soon carry.

For my alleged improvements and recent “adjustments” please read on. Percentage of melancholic sentiments is fairly the same (If you haven’t noticed.) Am optimistic and focused at work. I promised to believe in commitments then lavish (with every sense of the word) in relationships that are for keeps. So much for skepticism. At age 25, I now hope for happy endings!

Bitter "better" medicine

 I could maybe entitle this explicit blog"A tribute to 2007". Too much of a cliché isn’t it, which makes it sound lame? We all know who hates clichés the most, my so-called best friend. She’s too good for poorly formulated thought and ideas. LOL! It was her firm belief that yours truly is a typical girl who dates half the planet, mind you the worst of its kind. True to her word, I am that girl who finds sudden relief in the company of nerds and weird guys one could possibly fall “overtly” in-love with. (sigh) 

No…nobody won my heart, for the moment at least. Not even the guy I thought I loved for seven years, only to find out we had no common interest at all. Can you imagine? It’s the best laugh trip ever (no offense)! So, that only shows mystery is not at all a factor. “Fear” is it a factor..faith is. I learned, “tolerance to pain does not disprove you being scared”. A distinct statement purposely marked me for life, literally. The scar I thought would remind me to break all-embracing boundaries and never label anyone became the very words I ended up eating, more like masticating that is. I would never want to judge anyone as to who they are, where they’re from, and what they did. But that just sounds like a boy-band song as to which we all find sincere simple truths—NOT! As the revised old saying goes men are all the same, “You say tomato; I say he’s a hoe.”

 Sooner than later, I have come to believe that we’re all into the frantic search for “happiness”. I then decided to stay out of the market as a young-vibrant-single-hottie a couple of times. I subjected myself to a 24-hour men-dieting frenzy! The no-dating program unfortunately backfired starting mid August. It has gotten worst that I tend to forget names of those I dated. However, I never forgot how cheesy a “lover boy” could get and how cheap some of them could get. I do want to believe in relationships. I must have missed a lot then. 

For a time, I had all the love I could get. Wide-ranging support, an emotional cradle, and a tempting nest for self-gratification nonetheless. The organization made me strong, stronger even. I became my own person, a warrior and charming defender of the “mass”. I had such esteem to my Inay, Itay, adopted Mom and Dad; all the co-workers I treated somewhat family. Yet nothing or no one could ever replace a family, it’s your only one—your own. 

Mixed gutts

1.LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?  
Does accumulated minutes count? ;]

2.LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
Referring to tangible or intangible?

3.EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?
Is it not a requirement to do so at least once a day?

4.THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
Who doesn't spend on taxi fare and gas?

5.LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
I think I gulped that Thai Spicy Noodles,didn't I?

6.ONE FAVORITE SONG?
"I don't love you?"-My Chemical Romance

7.WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
Do hotels count?

8.LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED:
Wait,was it a wedding or FREE-meal-coupon day?

9.LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Apparently sunday, is she still sobbing over happiness?

10.WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT
WITH FRIENDS?
Is it quite an assumption that it
would probably be anywhere my friends
wouldn't see me with another loser guy?

11.CAN YOU COOK?
It depends if you prefer human flesh instead?

15.CAN YOU BAKE?
If Hansel & Gretel is around then maybe I can try?

16.LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
What hungry kid wouldn't make you cry?

17.LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
What's not to like?

18.HATE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
What's not to hate?

19.CAN YOU SING?
...that is if you're prepared to be amazed?

20.DO YOU SMOKE?
You mean am I scorching hot?

21.PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
Eventually, it will depend on what comes with what, right?

22.DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?
Is this supposed to be with a "double-meaning" question and answer?

23.LAST PERSON ON MISSED CALL LIST:
(COMPANY Phone)...where are you?

24.LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED:
Pls dsregard f payment has bn settled,sweeeet huh?

25.CAN YOU PLAY POOL?
If I say guys eat my powdery-pool-dust, wat ya think?

26.CAN YOU SWIM?
In the midst of what?

27.FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Anything that comes with a cone don't you think so?

28.WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING? Do you think I was ever awake?

29.WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?
Am I not already deprived of a weekend more often than not?

30.ARE YOU SMILING?
With my lips almost touching my ears?

31.DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?
I probably would detest that?

32.DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
You meant someone I'd like to crush?

33.DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?
Do you think I could deny that?

34.ARE YOU IN LOVE?
As much as I'd like to but no, do you think I am?

35.DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?

Like...dead people?

36.WHAT MOVIE DO YOU WANT TO SEE RIGHT NOW? Are scandals considered as short films nowadays?

37. ARE YOU EASY TO GET ALONG WITH?
Am I easy to go along with what,a bowl
of salad?

38. IF YOU WERE A COLOR, WHAT WOULD YOU BE? Now isn't that an intelligent question?

39. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE RIGHT

NOW,WHERE?

Will it be too dramatic if I confess, I need to go do "number 2"?

40. WHAT DISNEY MOVIE CAN YOU WATCH OVER & OVER?
Is Highschool Musical too obvious?

41. FOOD YOU'RE CRAVING FOR RIGHT THIS MINUTE? Didn't I just gulped Thai Spicy Noodles?

42. NAME A PERSON WHO'S NAME STARTS WITH THE LETTER "J"? Don't we usually shout, "@#$&*%, you...(Jerk)?"

43. WHERE'S THE BEST PLACE TO EAT ICE CREAM?

Have you heard of the ice cream place?

45. RADIO STATION YOU FREQUENTLY LISTEN TO?

You expect me to have time for that?

44. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE "SCARY MOVIE"?
Aren't soap operas scary enough?

45. WHERE DO YOU USUALLY HANG OUT?
You mean where I dry my clothes?

46. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL?

So is that what you should include in a resume too?

48. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR PHONE?
Is "dirt" a color?

49. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO TOMORROW?
If you think it's something new, why not do it now?

50. FAVORITE DAY?
Is it yesterday, the one I never had?